break

Now that we are all back from our holiday adventures i thought id post how mine went in hopes that everyone else will do the same.

I've missed chicago a lot since I have moved to ann arbor- i realized how perfect of a city it was for me once i didn't have it anymore, how appropriate. Ann Arbor has a crappy transit system, a lot of snow, and little to no diversity. Its a thriving little town, admist other towns that painfully struggle to keep going.

Big cities can be amazing, you can feel the city pulse, the energy of everyone culminating into a beat, and its a great feeling knowing you are a part of it. conversely, they also seem to have the ability to eat you up and spit you back out-you know that awful day or set of days, or even month where everything that can go horribly wrong does -and a general malaise sets over you, and seemingly everyone else you know. The latter half is what i experienced this past break.

After two weeks filled with series of unfortunate events, missed connections, and that itchy feeling you get from being back at your parents house for too long, i was extremely excited to hightail it out of there.

Although it was a crappy way to have a break it left me with something I've never had before- an excitement to get back into Ann Arbor. After coming back I guess Ive found that any place has its own little tune, youve just got to find it. Ive enjoyed riding my crappy transit and trudging through the slushy mess, and coming back to seeing familiar faces- who knew thats what these people had become.

Anyhow, although the method was backasswards, and I would have liked to have a fun filled worry-free break, its going to make this whole semester seem a lot better. Yesterday I had the best day Ive had in months, I found myself in a situation which is usually extremely frustrating, and which i used to think "god i hate ann arbor", but smiled the whole way through it. I finally found the joy in having way too much to hold in my hands with numb fingers and frozen feet, walking through a long unshoveled path, while the snow keeps falling.

I guess I've for the nine millionth time in my life just realized how important perspective can be, and will try me best to keep my positive outlook going this time - and hope you all do the same.

hope you all are well, and miss you much.